Friday, May 18

Interesting reading

I was poking around on MSN.com today and found this article, which goes well with the one I bookmarked from a few days ago. I'm going to put both links in this post so if you're interested, you can check the articles out.

The one I read tonight was an insight into how your birth order affects your love life and romantic style. Well, considering my love life sucks, and my younger brother has a more serious relationship than I do, I found this intriguing. Maybe you will find it applicable to your own life.

The other article was on praying for love. I know from talking to a lot of people that they (and myself included) pray for God to bring them someone to love, someone that they find compatible and wonderful enough for their affections. But how beneficial is it to pray for love and leave it completely up to God to figure out? Someone once told me that God is not a dating service, you have to do most of the work yourself when it comes to finding someone. But He can guide you into a frame of mind that readies you for a relationship, as well as giving you a way to form common bonds with others that believe like you do.

Faith is one of the major things that makes or breaks relationships these days, along with money and distance. In a long-distance relationship, partners who share in the idea of religion are more successful in sustaining the relationship. You can put your trust in God that He will lead you to the right person, but He is not going to do all the work for you---that's the beauty of dating.

Tuesday, May 15

My Celebrity Lookalikes

Monday, May 14

Preliminary design

I've been working on the tattoo design that I mentioned in an earlier post, trying to figure out what looked good. And so I tinkered around with Paint for awhile, and this is what I've come up with for starters...tell me what you think! (I think everything might end up being in black ink, to keep things as simple as possible.)

Later...

I got some input, and made a cool edit to the earlier design, something to give it a little more "personality." Here's a revised version:

Sunday, May 13

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!

I just wanted to say that I love my mom and everything she does for me and my family. She's awesome, and deserves so much more than what she gets.

I found this out in cyberspace...and wanted to share it with you all, the faithful few who come to read this.

*You are dying right now as you read this, accept that and have a life while you can.

*Guilt and shame are absolutely useless. Be who you know you are and do not put yourself in the position of having to justify yourself or over explain who, how, why, or what you are.
*The best way to get something from someone is to give it to them first - only then are you really worthy of it.
*Loving a person means you want better things for them than they want for themselves. It also means knowing what buttons to push to make them hurt, because if you truly love them you will never ever push those buttons. Ever.
*Have no fear of rejection. No one can really reject you anyway, all they can do is prove they were never worthy of you to begin with.
*All people come into your life for a different reason, the categories are simple. they come for a single reason, a season, or a lifetime. You must accept people as they are but that is not to say that you have to accept being completely incompatible with them.
*There is never a right time, there is never a perfect time, but there is ALWAYS a better time.
*Challenge yourself as often as you can so that you will know what your limits are, and until you know what your limits are, live as though you have none whatsoever.

*Live in the now, it is all you really have. The past is over and unchangeable, the future is uncertain. Live in the now, make it memorable, and make it count.
*Take people at their actions and not their words. You will never know who they really are by what they say, think, feel, or claim to believe, only by what they do. This is how character is both built and revealed.
*True joy only exists in self acceptance. Seek perfect acceptance instead of a perfect life.
*Honor and celebrate the people who love you, accept you, and put up with your bullshit like your life depends on it - when you get down to it, it really does.

Saturday, May 12

Anyone who watches or has heard of Smallville will appreciate this. I found this blooper reel from one of my searches on Youtube (where it's possible to waste away many hours of your day).



And also, Michael Rosenbaum (Lex Luthor from Smallville) loves his weiner...I love his humor, he's hilarious if you watch any clips of him not doing the show.

Friday, May 11

I don't claim to be an artist by any means. That's probably what's making my design work so difficult at the moment. :-p I'm trying to incorporate a few of the elements that are important in my life into one design (of course, one that isn't too complicated in itself) for a tattoo idea. Of course, the time to get it is still a long ways away, but it never hurts to get started early, huh? I know some people are going to read this and be like "What, Heather?!?! You're getting a tattoo?!?" I am thinking about it--hence trying to design it so that if I get the notion to, I at least would have something to go with. :-p

Also trying to keep things in perspective with all of the stuff going on right now...3 days and so far so good...hopefully it will keep going that well...only time will tell if I can move on.

Tuesday, May 8

Rue, rue, rue your boat.

So apparently people don't love me enough to take time to tell me what they think about me? **Referring to this link** (Or just are too busy and/or just don't care. :-p)

My current frustration is trying to figure out what to do for my summer. Ideally I'd like to work, preferably in Chapel Hill/Durham/RTP, but jobs seem to be a little evasive at the moment. I'm trying to figure out if education is what I really want to do with the rest of my life...after tutoring those kids, man, I need to know if maybe there's something I would love more than teaching day in and day out. It's not that I didn't enjoy it, it was awesome to have the kids understand what I was explaining to them (and then they would remember it for tests so their grades improved). But my first love, even before I changed my mind and decided to major in English (instead of Forensic Pathology, long story), was BOOKS! Books, writing, reading, the whole nine yards. I think if I could spend the rest of my life reading, writing, editing books, journals, papers...hey, anything with words in English, then I would be happy. Not to mention I would probably end up well-educated and well-read having gone through all that material! (I might even learn more than what I learned in four years of college.)

I was just thinking about that the other day...how much I actually learned in college from taking all those classes...what I can still remember from lectures, anything useful at all. It's kind of sad, I don't know yet if I can put 45 hours of credit in English to good use. Was all my reading of Chaucer, Pope, Frost, Poe, Hawthorne, Milton, Shakespeare in vain? Will it ever amount to anything worthwhile, all the time I spent writing those darn criticism papers? And what about my other 80+ credit hours? What good is all that history, philosophy, religious studies, etc. doing for me now, other than providing answers to Jeopardy questions? I have a piece of very nice paper that says I did all the coursework and graduated with a "Bachelor of Arts in English" from UNC, but is it worth the paper it was printed on?

Such is the musing of a rueful graduate. I wish I was still an undergrad. To all my friends that are still in undergrad, you all have it lucky. It's all still convenient, even as much as you gripe to me about class, tests, papers, finals. The real world is a whole lot more frustrating than an 8 am class, believe me. And to have the freedom in deciding whether to go to class or not is something I wish I still had. There's really no deciding whether or not to go to work. You just do it if you want to keep your job and get paid.

I need to go back to school, as soon as possible. I've started perusing where I want to expand my graduate school application search. Even to schools outside of NC, yep. Currently doing research on the best schools for education in the country. And the best schools for English/Creative Writing, cause I realize I might be better off pursuing a Master's in Literature and Writing. It might be easier to get in that way, already having my BA, and it expands the possibilities in programs I could apply to.

It scares me to think that more of my important people would up and move after they graduated. Granted, it is still a little ways off for many, but I am sad when people I love move away. Of course, I know that for those who really counted, we would go through heaven and earth to be able to see each other. I rue the fact currently that I haven't been able to see that many of my friends that left last year and scattered themselves across the country. Don't I wish I had the provisions to be able to do that...