"in secret"

And I will hide
in the darkest corners
in the shadows where you can't find me.
And I will watch
enviously
as you live and breathe
in the sunlight.
Let me close my eyes against the bright,
pack up my things, store these feelings
in boxes,
let me stow away the memories.
I want to be somewhere so far away
in a place where
you can't touch me,
nor find me with your prying eyes.
I am no longer your inconvenience
nor your easy answer...convenience...
to the desires in your head.
I know you see right through me
(but) never really seeing instead,
you see something I can never hope to be.
My breath wasted, my time running thin,
I don't know why I'm taking space here...
I should be somewhere, just not here.