I get excited about coming home because it's free food and I'm freed from the monotony of boredom at the apartment...but then I realize once I get here it won't take long for me to go crazy and want to leave the house to return to my apartment. My family is usually responsible for that. I am looking forward to Christmas, like always, but also the days after that, actually having plans for New Year's and seeing some special people I haven't seen in a long while.

But I'm definitely not enjoying this alumni status. I have no idea what I want to do now, or what to do with myself. It's going to be so strange in January when everyone else I know goes back to class and I'm just sitting around going "wtf?" I know I need to find a job. And part of my homework for the break is researching graduate schools and their programs, trying to expand the list of options for my teaching degree. I would love to be back at Carolina and graduating in the class of 2008 with my master's, but like I've heard so many times, I have to be prepared for anything.

And that means everything...whether I can see it happening or not...am not sure how these next few weeks/months will be shaping up...or how everything will be affected by current events. It's incredibly cryptic, but I hesitate to say too much at the moment.