the more i think about it, the more i realize i want it. i want all of it. i want the fire and the passion that i've missed for so long. i want the comfort and the friendship that always underlies the love and affection. the more i think about it--and you--the more i realize i'm hungry for it. but i want to wait...i want to wait so bad and not push the issue. i miss the comfort gained from something as simple as cuddling, man. but i want to gain the friendship before anything else. without the friendship--even if as all it is--it's empty. i made that mistake once, not believing in the friendship i thought i had with a guy...and then later realized it was all a fluke. should have taken more time then to work on that, but i know now what i didn't then. i've grown from that.