Tuesday, February 27

Is it ever possible to reconcile how you feel with what someone else feels? Can you and another person, while both caring about each other, but in completely different ways, ever be able to get along and not upset each other because the feelings are different? This is my current wonderment, after having a very lengthy and tearful conversation with a special someone close to my heart. I have to make the decision whether to walk away from the friendship or not...based on the knowledge that staying with this friend would cause a great deal of pain (even if we were to cut down on the amount of time we spent together). Advice garnered from someone who was in the same situation for 6 years tells me that it would be better and healthier in the long run to cut off all ties of this relationship now, rather than prolong my exposure and risk further emotional (and possible physical) damage. Quite frankly, I am not sure what else can be done. I've said my piece, and he's said his, and I think we've come to a stalemate on what we think is the best option at this point. If I want something that he isn't ready to give me, and I can't take any more time hurting myself over this, then I have to walk away. Otherwise I risk letting my feelings reoccur, and my jealousy over the status quo eat away at me. It's so hard to offer all of yourself, and know that you will never be able to have that person do the same for you. It's also difficult to wait and wonder if the one you care about will ever realize how much you want to be in his life, and feel the same way about you.

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