Blessing

Blessing

I never meant for things to be this way,
Never wanted things to be this bad;
Always thought we'd take on everything
Side by side, my beloved friend.
So close to my heart you've always been;
So large a hole I'll have when you're gone--
One no one else can fill quite like you do.
All the memories, the pictures on the walls,
The good times I'll keep with me till the end;
They remind me of the days I miss most.
I'll try to forget the tears I cried,
The pain that you and I gave each other,
And the mistakes that were made
Somewhere along the way.
Even through all my anger and frustration
I hope you always knew that I cared for you,
Wanting nothing but the best and happiness.
I hope you find it someday, if you haven't already begun.
Thank you for blessing me with your smile,
The gift of your friendship, your laughter and spirit, and
Your positive presence in my life every day.
Anyone who has the privilege of being your friend
Has the best blessing of all.
So please, don't think badly of me leaving,
It's something for my own good, a way of keeping the peace
In something I treasure most of all,
And something I don't want to leave in ruins.
I'll hug you tight one last time and try not to cry,
Praying that you'll find your way; you can do it without me.
I won't interfere with what you want to do...
I'll just step back and watch from a distance, with a smile
Like you would want me to do--to be happy, too.
Just keep going, you know I love you still.